I lost my dear and special Joe on Jan 25, 2007. He had total knee replacement on Tues and died on Wed. I feel it was neglect at the hospital. He had been sent for a CAT scan to rule out an emboli in his lungs and died 4 hours later without a monitor or anyone in attendance. They never even called me till he was dead. How awful! We were married for 42 great years and you would think I should be grateful, yet, it wasn't long enough. I loved him so and relished his embrace, his humor, his looks, his smell, his everything. I even cut his hair now that both of us were retired. He had worked so hard putting 3 kids through college, paying off our house and saving for our retirement. We traveled, laughed, danced and drank wine. He loved his Steelers almost as much as grandchildren (5). I buried him in a Steeler shirt with his ticket stub in with him. Oh God, how I miss that sweet, understanding fixer of my problems, my resource and the one who would make sense ! when there was no sense to be had. I wish all who are in my dark place the grace to go on....I don't see how I shall! Who will I go to now?

Mary